In a few days, it will have been 6 months since I’d unexpectedly had to say goodbye to my dog and my entire world. Some days are better than others, and it’s not that would ever want to not think about my best friend, but these waves of grief hit hard. It’s always random... then BAM. My thoughts are flooded with memories and my heart physically aches. I want to be happy and have so much gratitude for our time spent together, but I just HURT. I feel his presence. All of the time. Sometimes I can’t help but sob. Sometimes I sit in silence, numb to everything. After his passing, I slept on his dog bed for weeks. I wished it all was a bad dream. And I felt guilty for feeling this way. I feel guilty still. I just want to hear from others, how do you stay connected to your deceased dog and keep those memories alive without feeling such heartache? I have yet to scatter his ashes or have any sort of memorial, and I feel like I’ve trapped him somehow. Can this be? What am I doing/not doing to bring on these sudden spurts of despair? I just feel empty and incomplete. Mostly guilty for feeling these ways. I have so much to be grateful for, and I remind myself of this daily. But these waves of grief make me feel as though I’ve been punched in the gut, or like my heart is being twisted around like a rag, or like suddenly my source of oxygen has been cut off. What I really want to know is, how can I cope? Is there anything that will help me feel closer to my angel pup in these times? I miss him so much...
[link] [comments]
from Pets https://www.reddit.com/r/Pets/comments/l7fwi1/losing_a_dogwaves_of_grief/
No comments:
Post a Comment