I put my cat down last night and can't unsee it.

I've never had to put a pet down before and I feel traumatized by it.

I keep thinking about how badly she wanted to go home and get out of the cage during the car ride. As soon as she saw me come into the room she perked herself up like it was time to go and started trying to get off the table. I got down to eye level with her and we pressed our heads together and I kept telling her that I loved her. Then her head lowered into the blanket and she never came back up.

I can't unsee her scared, wrapped in a blanket with all of that equipment attached to her. Mentally she wanted to stay so badly, but physically she was suffering. Then seeing the medicine go into her and her face go down into the blanket and never come back up.

I have a therapist that I see every Wednesday, so I do have professional help...But does anyone else have any advice on how to get through this and see the happy times instead? It keeps popping into my head and I keep bursting into tears. I'm scared this is going to happen around strangers.

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