I had the longest day ever today... I’ve been stressed. I’ve been struggling with depression... I got into a fight with a friend last Thursday. It’s been weighing heavy on me... and I missed my therapy session today because I was held up at my college trying to fix crap and filling out paperwork.
I have two pups almost a year old. I love them to death, and up until now, they loved me to death. They always listened to me. When I took one for a walk the other would be waiting at the door for me to return. I took them into a pond over the weekend, and they followed me into the water (it was their first time around water) without hesitation. Even swam to me when I called them. They’re naturally obedient, kind dogs.
I was outside brushing them and filling up the small swimming pool I got for them. I was trying to brush one and the other kept biting the brush, so I was pretty rough on him when pushing him away. When I finally gave up and started brushing him, my girl pup jumped up and hit me in the nose. Gave me a bloody nose.
I just now finished putting them to bed after a bath. I wanted to get them clean before putting them up in their crates, because I just got them both new beds. I’m exhausted already, I have to wake up at 4:30 in the morning. I’m looking at 4 hours of sleep right now. I was irritated and wanted to get it over with. The baths went fine, but afterwards I ran out of towels to dry them off with, so I went for our hair dryer. This freaked them out. They wouldn’t have any of it, neither of them. I was pretty rough with them holding onto their collar, and I wouldn’t let them go. They fought me really hard... I hope I didn’t hurt them. My boy pup went full panic mode and tried everything he could to get away and that frustrated me even more. When he got away I grabbed him by the skin of his neck and his collar and drug him back to the living room. He kept running away from me.
I was blinded and frustrated. I would’ve never done this. I shouldn’t have done it at all I should’ve just went to sleep. Now he is super timid around me. Won’t come to me when I call him... basically the same with my girl pup. He weighs around 55 pounds and she ways around 30. He never tried to bite me or got violent with me, only tried to get away, yet I was so violent towards my two innocent babies...
Please tell me all the trust isn’t lost... I really don’t want to lose any trust with them or make them doubt me or scared when I grab around their collar or put it on them. Up until now they loved me more than anything and I want to keep it like that... I always mess everything up.
What can I do to fix it? What should I be looking for to make sure I didn’t hurt either one of their necks or something? Any advice would be appreciated. I’m so sorry I did this.
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