I've always adopted my cats in my lifetime. I've had my boy Platypus as my first ESA since he was 3 months back in 2018. I /just/ recently within the last two weeks adopted a new calico girl to be a companion for both myself and him. She's the same age and even the same genetic mutation of being polydactyl. She's makes the tiniest news and actually will give you hugs!
However, I sit here and most of the time when I hear Platypus cry from the other half of the apartment, I wonder if I made the biggest impulsive decision of adopting her despite knowing just how afraid she was during the meet n greet. I actually break down into tears, constantly paranoid that Platypus will resent me for this decision and stop loving me after all the time and love I have given him. Mind you, I have major depressive disorder, anxiety and borderline personality disorder, so if I especially feel these things before I am able to take my medication and it absorbs, it feels like I was in an emotional train wreck.
I'm more so venting than asking for answers/directions. They're not going to get along for a while, we've tried a couple meet n greets supervised, it's a slow build up into an explosion. Mind you, it's only been two weeks, so I had low expectations of her even adjusting to me, let alone the apartment and then Platypus.
I have voices of doubt in the back of my head saying well if you're not happy, take her back. Unless they stayed aggressive towards each other outside of just being territorial or I happened to become terminally I'll, then yes, I would return her unfortunately.
I've seen similar post adoption stress posts, but I just need to have a brain dump here before reading too many of those.
Thanks for putting up with me!
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