So I'm a college student who always knew I wanted to adopt a dog. This past October I did, a Malinois x GSD mix named Moose. Since then we've been basically inseparable, and I feel like he's my child in every way which doesn't really make sense to anyone I know lol.
Like a million other pandemic puppies, Moose has separation anxiety. He never did well in a crate, and since I'm in an apartment (he gets loads of exercise and space other ways before you come for me), I didn't stick with crating him for my neighbors' sakes. He doesn't destroy things or whatever, he just cries for a while. Once, however, he did escape past my roommate when she came home and didn't close the door, as he seemed to be looking for me outside. My parents' dog when I was around 12 was hit in front of their house after running out a gate, so I have an intense fear of Moose being hit by a car as well as getting lost or something.
Cut to present, I'm going back to college NOT online anymore as everything opens back up post(?)-pandemic. Only for a couple hours each day in the mornings, but with 3 new roommates and their two dogs in a new house. This increases my fear tenfold. He isn't aggressive, but one dog is very small and without meaning to he could hurt her, or he could annoy them by whining (very likely) and make them hate me. More than anything I'm terrified of him getting out of the house. I barely know my new roommates and I don't want to come in sounding insane when I stress to them how much I'd actually lose it if something happened to him.
I've been searching my options for dog daycares even though they're not my favorite thing since my dog isn't a great dog park dog (too much and too loud for most pups). He has a temperament test for four hours next week, and if he doesn't pass, I'm headed toward full-fledged panic. I've even been contemplating my options of leaving school. Although getting a full time job and still having to finish my new lease doesn't really solve anything.
I guess I don't know if I'm asking for advice because at this point I've gotten myself into this issue. My next move if daycare doesn't work out is getting him into one of those ultra expensive boarding training camps so he can learn insane recall skills like a K9 and never leave me ever lol.
More than anything I just feel crazy all the time. My anxiety used to be over things like school performance or my future. Now it's never not about my dog, and it's never not present. I am constantly and intensely terrified of losing him. I understand that dogs don't live as long as us, but I truly don't think I'd ever recover even slightly if something were to happen to him prematurely. Maybe I should be seeking therapy for myself instead of training for him
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