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My cat died on the 16th. She died in my arms, purring, she went to sleep quickly, unknowing. It was the right thing, and the hardest thing I've ever done.
We had Lumi since she was 2, for nearly 6 years she lived with us. A member of our family, although sometimes annoying and malty, always loved. A ball of fluff who couldn't meow, only merrrack.
She slowly wasted away before our eyes, losing weight over the course of a year. We tried every avenue, all the pills we could find. Steroids held it back, the reaper's line got imperceptibility longer, we stole back what we might lose. We gained two months.
We thought she was on the mend, gaining weight, our old cat back. It was only meant to be a routine appointment, pick up some pills and food, be on our way.
The weight was a lie, we kidded ourselves, fluid surrounding whatever malign was inside her. She was starving, her body unable to process all the food. Time left? Only weeks, she'd continue to starve no matter what. The decision could only go two ways, take her home, to starve and eek things out, or for her to go, then, there. I'm ashamed, I'm a coward. I would have brought her home, I couldn't do it. My wife decided, it was the right decision, I simply agreed. She won't ever know how strong she really is, the right path is never easy. For all my selfishness I would have taken her home. I would have forced her to endure something cruel for my own lies.
I stayed till the end, her head on my hand. She deserved so much more, but it was all I could do. No one should be alone at the close. She purred, happy, content, unknowing. It was fast, too fast. One moment there, then gone. If I could go back, I'd stop it, I'd ask for more time, one more minute, forever.
When she went, a piece of me went too, only small, others won't notice, won't see. For those who have lost a pet, my heart goes to you. Grief is personal. It steals into your soul, time will heal it, but it'll airways be there, replacing the piece now lost. The once imprecise ragged scar will fade, a lasting reminder of those lost, and a beacon to ensure you never take those you love for granted.
Lumi 2011 - 2019
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