I adopted a kitten yesterday from the Human Society. I've always wanted one of my own and had a family cat my whole life up until about 8 months ago when she passed.
I'm a 26 yo F, live alone, and have been severely depressed the past few months. I lost my job due to COVID and thought finally adopting a kitten would help get me through this hard time. She is unbearably cute, sweet, and everything I could ask for BUT late last evening I started to get severe anxiety about this decision and now keep going back and forth on whether or not I should bring her back to the shelter. What's been running through my head:
- I don't want her to feel abandoned. I'm already falling in love with her and all of the other kittens in her litter have already been adopted. All I think is possibly giving her back and the pain she would feel from it.
- Every time I leave her (the longest I have is 2 hours), I feel overwhelming guilt and shame. I don't want her to feel scared or abandoned.
- I'm terrified that when I find a 9-5 job I will feel this even more and begin to think that keeping her was a decision that wasn't best for her
- My parents live only about 20 minutes away and I go visit often to hangout or sometimes spend the night. This is important to me now more than ever when loneliness and depression takes over. I am scared of leaving her for too long
- I don't have any friends close by to ask to check on her under all these circumstances.
As I type this she's curled up next to me as cute as can be. I never expected to feel this way and am at a loss.
Can anyone give me advice or guidance?
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