I'm 22, I've had my little man since I was 8. He's grown up with me for my entire life. Recently this past summer he developed a rectal hernia that made going to the bathroom for him very difficult. After months of temporary fixes, we had to decide between surgery or euthanasia. As time went on, the problem just got worse and worse. Being 15, surgery wasn't in the cards. As it could have easily failed, it wouldn't be the way I wanted him to go. He's been suffering for the past 2 days at home, which is why today we made the decision that it was time to put him to rest. My heart hurts in ways I cannot even explain. I held him until he fell asleep, then left the room before his heart stopped. Seeing him dead was not the last image I wanted in my mind. I wanted him to fall asleep peacefully in the arms of the person who loves him the most. The image of him falling asleep after the first injection constantly replays in my head. Each time, my heart breaks a little more. I've never been able to imagine even one day without him, and now it's for the rest of my life. I miss him so much. Words and emotions could not describe the way I feel. I am so lost. I've been crying for 10 hours. I'm ready to vomit, my eyes are so puffy and raw, my head is pounding. I've never loved someone or something the way that I love him. I keep trying to tell myself I did the right thing, but life without him just doesn't seem possible. There's a void in my heart that can't be filled. My will to live is .. gone. I feel like I don't want to be here if it isn't with him. My god, I love him so so much. How do others get through this? I feel like I will feel this way forever. I will always, ALWAYS miss and love my little pal, my best friend. RIP bud, fly high. You aren't hurting anymore. I love you, Maxx. 🤍🕊
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