I hate it, and I realize that I’m a disgusting human being. Everything turned out right at first and I was doing really well with looking after him, I thought I did all the research I can and that I’d have the time to spend time with him and some help with looking after him until I got a job. That was stupid. I was blinded by belief that my parents were moving away from their old beliefs about animals but I was so so wrong. I’m not completely innocent as the more time it took to pass, the more guilty I felt about not doing enough. I feel like I have no right to try and bond with him In those conditions. It’s not fair!
Now my bird has nothing but food and water and the guilt has been gnawing on me for a long time. Idk what to do to fix this and I’m not sure how I can get him to a better place so that he doesn’t have to be with his neglected. I keep trying to tell myself that things will get better but it’s not. He’s bored out of his mind and I know that that’s hurting him.
He has dowel perches and my family never buys vegetables and never would, they even hesitate to take him to the vet (I always argue with them that he needs more) but they always go “It’s just a bird, all he needs is seeds”. I try buying stuff on my own but I have to order them online because they will start getting upset that I’m “spending all my money” on him. It’s my money that I worked for.
He’s alone for most of the day. I leave the tv on sometimes but it’s to the point where he doesn’t even want it on anymore and will freak out. He only accepts music. When I do try to do something and make him feel less lonely, he does come over to me and gets curious, like he does want to bond. That only makes it hurt so much worse because I’m not that person that I wanted and needed to be for him. I’m selfish to not want to give him away but I know it’s what’s best So that he doesn’t have to live his life like this anymore and wait for things to become better. I can’t live with constant guilt that I made him go through this for so long. Everything’s a mess
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