It’s been 2 weeks since we lost our dear chubs to cancer. Today we go for his ashes. Life has changed so much and there’s this sadness that fills our house. While we have 4 other cats the loss of our chubs can be felt almost everywhere. I yearn to hear his voice meowing for food or when he slams my moms room door open causing a scene to let us know he’s going to bed. I miss the excited look on his face when he sees a bag of carrots or any plastic bag. I miss his sweet loving face.
I’ve managed to stop crying but there’s this emptiness inside of me and a broken heart I don’t think will ever mend. He’s been there since I was 9 and now I’ll be 24 next month. He was there through all our 3 moves, he was there for every milestone and chapter in my life. He was our family cat and baby for my childhood, teens and adulthood. We had such great memories, my favorite was when he would run up our Christmas tree and sometimes even throw the entire thing down.
Chubs I’m sorry I couldn’t save you. Im sorry I didn’t take you more often to the vet, I’m sorry we didn’t catch the cancerous tumor earlier. I’m sorry for so much. I’d give everything just to hold you one more time. I sent you to the animal hospital in a cage and now I’ll be getting your ashes back in a box and hopefully soon you’ll be planted in the ground so a tree can grow and your memory will stay alive. During the day i occupy myself with chores and responsibilities but then night comes and all I can think of is you. I still take out 5 bowls when I’m feeding your brothers and sisters, waiting for you to come out the room and eat with them.
I miss you my sweet baby and you will never be forgotten. Please forgive us for not doing more to help you. We loved and still love you with every ounce of our being and you’ll always be our baby. Please don’t forget us. Hope your resting in peace and wait for us at the rainbow bridge bubs❤️
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