I've been scouring this subreddit and the /r/AskVet subreddit for hours trying to gain some comfort. I have a 15ish year old chihuahua I rescued when she was 10ish.
She's had an enlarged heart and murmur (now grade 6, started at about a 4) the entire time I've had her, and been on heart meds for almost the same amount of time. Up until this year, she was doing great with all of those things. At the beginning on this year, she went blind (fairly suddenly).
Three months ago, she went into heart failure. We were able to pull her out within about 24-48hrs, and she was okay with her managed medication.
She went into heart failure again this weekend. It was worse this time, and at this point, I see her suffering (she is still not truly out of it, even with 3.5x dose of Lasix and oxygen therapy at the vet yesterday, plus .75ml dose 3x a day at home).
I just do not think it is fair to keep her around anymore. It feels selfish, when she is not the sassy girl that has been with me (and saved my life). With all the Lasix she has been peeing in her sleep, lethargic, and still not truly eating (just occasional treats, maybe once a day). She is drinking water and going potty outside too, but she's just...not really there anymore. She is existing instead of living.
I don't want to keep her around for selfish reasons. I don't want her to get out of this episode, just to have it happen again in a month, and have to make that decision under duress and it be somewhere else (ie a vet instead of at home).
I guess I am mostly just looking for support in this decision - I feel terrible considering it, but I also feel selfish for wanting to keep her around. Everyone keeps repeating it's my decision, and I know that...which is what makes it so hard. What if I make the wrong one? I'm just terrified of having her suffer.
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from Pets https://www.reddit.com/r/Pets/comments/ds59a7/heart_failure_and_euthanasia/
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